29/12/2011

Yes it is almost the end of the year...just after christmas...
but...its exam time ...haiz...
didnt have the study mood at all....holiday mood isnt there as well...
what am i feeling now?neutral?hmm...

wont be having anymore class for my life unless i repeat or get even higher education- -" i wonder where will i end up in the future...
am i good enough as i am now?
not just in profession,but in personality and social relationships...
well,no matter what people sees...this is me~

thats why everyone of us is special as we have our own "individualities"
just be urself thats the most common advise given.
yes just be ourselves, dont worry be happy.
every cloud has a silver lining.
life maybe bad at times,but it will be better :D

Enough crap for tonight...its either time for bed / book- -" nights~

Regards,
Blues89™

Friday~

TGIF?
not for my case...
too many things left undone...= ="
many works left but yet...
i drown myself in games and all other entertainments rather than work on my stuffs.
and yea...i get more outgoing i guess..thats my own personal view...
im gonna try to change to be a better one!!
u'll see!!~XD
Well...done my musicreport...
whats left is seminar and multimedia assignment...
wonder how should i start and end= ="
hmm...
wont be meeting my supervisor at all x.x
he is busy and i gotta present by tuesday...GGness- -
well..whatever comes comes~get it on baby ~=X

well thats all for this time ~

regards,
Blues89

REcent life~:D

Yea...This is the last semester and its the heaviest and busiest sem ever...but i still cant get the mood to study and be hardworking...something still hold me back?my past?hmm....
well...watever comes comes~
been coughing nonstop for 1 week +...guess i really am weak now huh= ="
wonder when will i recover from this..
and yea...i changed!! yes i changed! to be a bit more outgoing than last time i guess...learnt my lesson well :D
last few days keep go dinner with fren at tbr or just nearby...its fun chatting with them...wonder why last time i nvr try to spend my time with others huh?well...lets focus on the future shall we?
jz kinda weird why i started being a bit more active when its so hectic- -" beats me...
i got few reports,2 assignment, and 1 seminar....and seminar is in 2 weeks time...
and i havent even start prepare a single thing for it...
guess i really need to behave a bit and stop gaming as much and watch anime / drama too....
oh yea!! recently i went to Tao with teo and qw...the food is quite nice but still this kinda place is expensive...once awhile is ok...cant make it too frequent...rather go japan123?LOL... dian hua fan dian xD
hmmm ntg much to write d....jz bz life but lazy...haiz...i need some motivation...
wish me luck :P

Regards,
Blues89™

2nd day~

Yes today indeed is memorable...LOL...
I went all the way to 1u to meet a net fren and we even went to watch movie "Abduction" together :P
well,its first time ever i travel so far to meet a net fren= ="
guess my past really changed me huh?o.O
yep...finish movie and she is back with her family while i wander off...
sesat-ing in 1u LOL!!!
i totally have no sense of direction SWT!

luckily i found my way at last and familiar a bit le- -"
went to cold storage to find another fren which i met last year during oct fest but she went for break= =!!
what to do?
haha...walk around lor..wander again lor...see those car road show lor...then all those girls there- -"
haiz...what else can i do ?x.x

at last managed to wait her back to cold storage so i went to chat with her...
surprisingly,i nvr tot our chat can last for so so so so so long= ="
from 3 to 8?LOL...
that totally break my record- -"

then i received calls from mates asking me to go for oct fest again...
ok= =" although im bankrupt...not gonna buy any glass so should be alrite...
just sit there and enjoy the music huh?:P
and of cos the "view" hahahaha....

well thats about my day which is not in full detail...
cant really continue write as im going off to bed to get rdy for later...
KLCC!!! orchestra! im coming~<3

Nitez peeeeepz

Regards,
Blues89

OctoberFest

yea its october fest once again ><" and im at 1u again woots!!!
but sadly no more rm1 per bottle this year...
well,i only bought 1 litre with a free mug which i can just take home and its by my side now!!
haha...consider as a memory ba...getting a bit drunk just by drinking so much x.x"
well,i am a bit drunk maybe...at least no more complicated stuffs to think about right?
but what coincidence...my fren fetched me to OverTime which is the place i kinda remember clearly as someone lied to me about attending mum's death dunno what hearing thing while enjoying herself at such a place...
but whatever ba...one sided love nvr turns out good anyway...
treat this as an experience and dun get cheated again next time...
just i wonder how long can i ever recover from this hit first....
it took kinda long but still not yet disappear...swt...
well enough said...
after that OverTime we waited for quite a while but then....aromatic sold out...need to wait a long time....x.x"
got tired of waiting so we just went to get few bottles of beer and went to the field and just chit chat and drink our sorrows away....
thats my day today in 1u...
MIGHT be going again tmr...but im not raelly sure...hope i dun get too bad of a hangover ....haha^^

regards,
Blues89™

Yo~

yeayea~ whatsup~ its 1:55 am in da morning~
on 18/9/2011~ ><
dj in the house~ keep the beat rolling!~
LOL...wth is happening with me?- -"
crazy d...emo d..sad d...happy d...randomness d...
Hmm...
hm...
h...
ok...finish posting thanks xD

Holidays ended...

Yea...its been a relaxing yet heart breaking holiday...
I managed to see some of my long lost friend which is kinda cool...
but yet receive treatment as if im nobody as well during my trip back to hometown...
nvm...
i must learn to be calm at all times...hasty wont lead me to anywhere good...and ive tasted that...
oh yea...went to 1 private competition made by some guy regarding dota competition in garena...its private thats why its actually just small gang of ppl who know...but it consists of 32 teams...
and what the heck...my team actually managed to win 1st round?really miracle...a team consist of no regular dota gamers except me and poh...haha...
first time play furion in draft and managed to farm so much :P
with my karat skill consider not bad d ba....
well,2nd round got fren cmi,a substitute took his place but really cmi..
still lose although not far apart but a lose is still a lose whether its a mile or an inch...
after few days relaxing in ktn...im now back in kl going to continue my hard life here...haiz...
T_T

well...good luck...to anyone and to me :D
Regards,
Blues89™

Yamcha session at ktn~

Yea....ytd went out with few long lost fren to yamcha...went out at 11...reach old town and drink for awhile close shop..wth~~~~

so in the end ,we went tc mcd continue chat...haha..

the best part is...this is the first time i went out yamcha that took around 6 hours- -"

i wonder how we chat that much...LOL!!

other than that,my life is still pretty much the same,facing the pc morning till nite with not much changes...haha xD~

well then,when free ill update ba...

a random question...

"Have you ever written a long message but in the end delete it and never send out?"

i did that alot =x

Cya

Blues89™

Just sharing...

YEs there is a lot i can write about,but today im gonna give it a rest and just share a song :D

its quite a nice song :P

yea if u all notice,recently i changed to a song listener mode..haha..keep share songs only...

well...not gonna talk more on it...enjoy~

Regards,

Blues89™

Past few days ...

Hmm..lets start from where...hmm...no idea~
just write whatever i still remember ba~!!
hahaha...as usual,my memory aint good--"

hmm..lets take it few days back when i had 2 movies with my bro and sis...
Transformers 3 AWESOME~~xD
not really a fan of transformers but its really nice...
next up is....the rise of planet of the apes!!!
yes its NICE!!!
haha...and it totally has no relation with the planet of apes last time...dun confuse urself lol~

next up...oh yea...i went to gym for the first time in my life...LOL...
and its such a bad experience- -"
when i walk in,6 to 8 guys all topless showing their 6 packs...
T_T zi bei d la...lol~
and after that day,i nvr been to gym anymore cos whole body damn pain= ="swt...
guess im really not fit enough...6 packs is still a faraway dream for me...
haha...teo is going with me though...at least not so bored and also more determination!yea~

what else har?- -"lets seeeeeee...........
hmm...feelings perhaps...haha..still cant let go...
guess im really loyal guy huh?XD wakakkaka
or maybe overpossesive or...too easy jealous?hmm...
gotta fix that up soon...
but well..even if im all alone,i still hv our memories with me...:D
you may forget completely about me,but i wont..u may hate me and love me not one bit,but i wont.damn...im too loyal...lol~~kidding nia..swt

Life is getting busy as actually tmr is deadline and yet my projet is not anyway near finish...haiz...T_T

dont k d ba...time to go drama and de-stress~

Regards,
Blues89™

Tiring day- -

As title suggests,damn tiring...reached home around 11...
dont feel like going for game so im gonna off after writing this post...
gonna write about why im so late today first...

Today,i went to Stadium Putra for Asia Ablaze...pastor from other countries travel all the way here to lead ppl back to salvation...^^
that means me i guess...kinda backslided christian...swt...
well the thing is actually quite nice...will be held on 2-4th august...
night session is free of charge and the hall can fit in 15k ppl...so invite anybody u wan~

next...lets write bout my target?hahahaha...
well..
1.learn guitar...Hopefully this time i raelly can learn well...
2.go gym on regular basis...asked teo and qw together d...since they wanna lose weight...i go build muscle ba xD~
3.go back to church after all these while...

thats the 3 thing for now...

So...about my recent emo life?@@" guess ill talk a bit...
im back to single life,but not yet to let go of her...
recently noticed that im actually quite possesive!!!hahaha!! super that type ba...
even shes not mine,i still feel like shes mine...is that possesive or just miss her too much?im happy when she told me that er....her current bf........ntg ba...
but from what i notice,they seems to hang along well d...
guess im the only one whos yet to let go ba >deep down within me know that its impossible for 2 of us anymore,but...i just cant let go...still thinking there might be chacne...
stupid or naive?lol...
well..shes living her life well...i should do so as well....

i learnt a lot from all these, and now...im going to spend my time more to be more outgoing and such...a brand new adam?:D haha...in search of new eve~ any applicants?lol....
well thats about it...and ntg to worry about...im doing ok d i guess...live life like normal although mind keep floating...hahaha....guess itll be ok,just a matter of time...didnt go stalk ppl profile anymore...even though i really wanna know her recent news...nvm....
since she doesnt wan me to know,as her wish ba....
gonna busy with work now...deadline drawing near and yet...i still dilly dally around xD hahahaha....

ok...gonna sleep d...not much time left...nite to whoever my reader is :P

stapling my broken heart,
Blues89™

back to inactive state?

yea as title suggests,i might be going back to inactive blogger state once more...lol...

but lets finish up today's story first...
went out to dinner right after i reached wangsa =="
then?
go cc around 3 hours chiong maple...LOL!!!
whats next?
go genting kelang greenrose 2nd round dinner or...supper?lol...
reach home around 10 to 11...

well now its 1+ cos i anime since i back home and of cos bath and so on and it takes some time ><

ok..lets go back to title...lol...
why inactive?perhaps no motivation to continue ba...maybe ill write again once i get new motivation?or maybe my life is just so normal there is ntg special to share out?

well...lets let that slide...im just gonna write when i feel like it...to hell with updating frequently...xD im gonna do it my way~LOL!!!

k la..continue maple+ anime...- -"
nite

Regards,
Blues89™

x.x"

Oh no...its end of the month...Haiz...so many things left to do but....
dun got the mood to actually do them...
feel like going for part time job...but a bit too far for me...
guess $ will really become a problem in the future...
Can study finish degree guarantee a steady income?i doubt can i even finish studying and graduate...
Things been going on my mind all these while but...well...just deal with it anyhow= ="
I still need to keep on going no matter what :D
I think strict diet and days of walking is really taking into me...feel tired all the time and i keep fell asleep in office...
give up dieting?hmm...
as long as i hvnt faint i guess...hahaha...
well..now starting to get use to my silent phone once more...except when there is advertisement...LOL!!!didnt even have much credit inside also...
act as my watch or alarm for now =x
glad i no need to buy myself an alarm clock xD
thats all for now...

Regards,
Blues89™

The memories..And determination.

Yes...as title suggests...

As ppl might have noticed...I am undergoing strict diet right?
actually there is a few reasons why i have this determination...
yes...it is damn suffer at first...lol...i want my snacks >well...ill say what my determinations come from...
hmm..
1.get a nice body shape?LOL!!!no la..getting a bit too fat...all say me...i emo...wan reduce...diet!!!
2.from her who everyday so hardworking going to gym...
3.save money...wonder why i need to save...?i heard someone in need of some electrical stuffs to cope up with next semester work..thought of saving up and subsidise her or what...but...nvm...its too late...get back money keep save for future use ba ^^ or maybe get a better phone!?XD
thought of earning money to go holiday also ba...^^try to change!!!lets travel~
4.lower my blood pressure as well- -" haiz...hypertension lv 2...and due to the sickness i have before this...few hundred gone d...work whole month also cant earn back d la...transportation fees and so on...walao...what also money nia!?
5.trying to get someones attention again by trying to change myself...but..guess it has the opposite effect ><" too bad
6.well the main raeson of all still revolves around that someone...just trying to let her see a better view of me..is that too much?

Hmm...now lets start comparing my life before and after...
There will be a part of before ( single life ) and also AFTER ( couple life) and also final kua...hahahah...see how first...


Before - I am single and all alone and my only wife is my pc....
yes.life is all good...cos...as the saying goes,sometimes its best if u just do not know...
as a lonely guy who online everyday,game is everything...and other than that...maybe chat around few girls maybe..haha...
yes...life is all good...cos i dun even know whats better than that...
well it now comes to after...

well the story starts in my game in garena...angry with some admin....well around that time...i added someone thru facebook...
as usual,im alwaz doing my best trying to please the other side..haha...managed to get her msn and number as well not long after....chat everyday...
and the day comes when she even came to kl to study...wow?fate...
but the thing it really all began was on the day when she is complaining to me shes hungry at nite and hunger for supper....lol...
as a matter of fact,i have no idea why i would say ok to her...even if my closest fren ask me to go out at that timing,i'll find out some excuse and just reject it...
but...it turns up i really agreed on meeting her for the very first time and have our supper together...
well,consider it a miracle how it all happen,a guy as shy and a guy as not outgoing as me going out alone with another girl...lol...thats some NEWS alright?!
well...i cheated her the very first time we met hahahaha...i said i gonna walk over to her hostel..but instaed i drive over...- -" nvr thought why i did that too...really not my character...swt...
somemore its somewhere in gk..lol...a place where my fren keep ajak me drive go for hundreds of times but only succeed one time that kind...guess im really not that sporting huh...
thats the first time meeting her...and after that..there has been more...
i have experience a lot of first time with her...haha...but the thing that leaves most impression on me is the night we spend the whole night just chatting...and she gave me a sudden kiss on the cheek...i raelly startled..i was just joking in msn last time...but..she did give me a real one..and it really touched me...a lot more things happen and yes...we are together after that....well...lets skip it to the AFTER part...

AFTER
Well,i noticed lots of changes that a gf can bring to me...
Couple life is a lot better than single but when u lost it...it hurts a lot more and u rather ur single before this...
this is a list of i miss u...
1.i miss the time when ur with me
2.i miss the smile u had
3.i miss the cute face u gimme>4.i miss the time when i can hold ur hands...
5.i miss the time when i can hold u in my arms.
6.i miss the time we have movie marathon every single time we go out
7.i miss the time when we sit bus and go over to pavilion
8.i miss the time when we sit down and eat at the japan store to eat crepe
9.i miss the time when u come over
10.i miss the time when i wake up i see u by my side
11.i miss the time when i wake up,ur there staring at me><
12.i miss your touch
13.i miss it when u ask me for massage...although i dun really like...haha..but if its for u...sure
14.i miss ur kiss
15.i miss poke poke
16.i miss going to ur place just to bring u food when ur sick
17.i miss there is someone there for me to share my stories
18.i miss there is alwaz someone there for me
19.i miss smsing
20.i miss going out dinner
21.i miss getting so many diff food in mamak instaed of just nasi pattaya or what
22.i miss walking to college together with u
23.i miss accompanying u shopping
24.i miss the time we go out
25.i miss the time we spent together
26.i miss the memories we craeted together
27.i miss the times we had together
28.i miss having midnite talk until morning
29.i miss msn and sms at the same time
30.i miss playing games together with u
31.i miss seeing ur reactions
32.i miss playing around with u
33.i miss seeing u sleeping by my side
34.i miss u sitting on my lap
35.i miss watching movies with u
36.i miss sitting on the side seats of the cinema with u
37.i miss u being by my side even when im busy
38.i miss being by ur side even when ur doing ur things
39.i miss trying to be of help to u
40.i miss seeing u do work at my place
41.i miss staying by ur side even if there is ntg to do
42.i miss having little arguments with u
43.i miss how u treat me
44.i miss u waiting in front of my house
45.i miss u tapao for me
46.i miss the time when i back home,ur there
47.i miss loving u
48.i miss having u
49.i miss hugging u
50.i miss u

thats how i ended up now...but ...its all over and i cant do anything except get over it ba..before and after...yes...there is a lot of things i cannot realise when im single...the feeling of being loved...thats one special feeling...and i still hope i have that feeling now...

thats about the difference of before and after...thats a list of "i miss"..thats the thing that really wins over single life ><" but im back to single life...well..get over it ba...cant be expecting anything much after what i did...forgiveness is such a hard thing...

well..finally?back to single life..what else= ="LOL....
yep..it feels kinda lonely..nothing i can do about it...i stopped chatting with all other girls ever since i got her...only reply when other girls find me...all gone d lu...haha...
well..i cant so fast get over it and head for new relationship ba...the feeling is still strong in me. Good luck to all the single guys and girls ba ><" its tought being alone...but...life will keep going right?i will try to get over this and i am acting strong in appearance only ba...there are so many times i cried myself to sleep....T_T well...stop crying d though...aint crybaby no more!!!>
back to real life,walk to lrt,stand for 40 minutes,walk to office...3 hours daily to and fro action...thats my life- -" doing my project waiting september to come so i can end my intern and continue as a student...

before this i even plan on going holiday with her somewhere when im done with intern,but everythings too late...well..this will be the last time i write about such post i think....
must carry on...
time heals...i wonder..how long will it take...
i dun think i will forget...bt just hope i can let go ><"
when i tries to forget,it just pops out even more often...lol..what a useless way to forget huh?><"
im quite a backslide christian...but..i think i will be going back to church soon...
of cos ill keep u in my prayer everything will go smoothly for u.
as for myself,i just hope to stay healthy...haha....lame >well then..its late and i only left few hours sleep...time to off to bed...
stop here then!
oyasuminasai...


The one who cant forget the past just yet,
Blues89™

Over?

Yes,most of the things are over...Just waiting for some unfinished stuffs to settle down.Well,i cant control that though...

Ok...lets talk about my life these few days...maybe zombie is a good synonym?LOL!!
i went to work these few days just sitting there and wasting all my time away.In the end,i did ntg at all..Haiz..Will i ever catch up with my project deadline?

Why having such a zombie life?emotional breakdown i suppose...Some might know what happened and some might not know...But actually deep down inside i already know the answer but i chose not to believe it...Guess,im stuborn?

Well,even all these things i am still grateful and yes even i hurt alot but i am still thankful.i never knew i can actually think it this way though...Well,i tried to forgive and forget,forgive maybe possible but forget is still seems a little too hard for me...

Well,i tried my best doing what i can...even if the outcome isnt what i want i cant do anything about it anyway right?i guess itll take me sometime to be back to the Disreputable Lone Ranger :D~

Well,thats life,lots of ups and downs...it just matters whether u have the will and power to live over it...and i will try my best to get over it! and yes,forgiving someone actually makes us feel better...in my case i am a bit more calm and peaceful compared to when i first emotional braekdown...did lots of stuffs that shouldnt be done,but whats done is done,cant do anything else...

oops~~~its getting late here..2am and yet im here crapping ...lol!!tmr still need to wake early and walk to work again ...same schedule every week...haiz...hope i can finish intern asap and back to my college life...

NITE all ><

Blues89™

yo...

Be strong,everything will pass,
continue living on,the world still turns even without u...
be brave,everything will be ok,
continue hanging on,the life will still continue...
be still,nothing changes,
there is nothing that can stays forever...


suddenly tot of a song...crying in the rain...a favourite song of mine since young but nvr knew it might be applicable to myself....pity me the night never accompany me...
well...time to move on and try to get some sleep i guess...zhou gong,pls find me play chess tonight...

Blues89

Days of thinking

Clock ticking away yet my mind never stop thinking how it ended up like this...

Yes really,I am just an actor on this stage playing a fool out of myself...

I feel that the rainy days are my friends for they accompany me by falling down tears...

It is heartbreaking to live a life as pathetic as mine but I'll stay strong.

Saw ur pic in my drawer and also in my pc...Nostalgic?Or plain sadness...

Still thinking i got chance?im just a dull guy,who wants?

back to my lone ranger life i guess...

Hoping for a change.

Hanging on...

I am hanging on by a thread...~ ~ ~

Letter to you.(Alice)

There will be 2 part,you may just want to read part 1 as part 2 might not be what u want to read.I know its quite sudden but I just feel like saying all out after days of consideration.Well so here it goes.

PART 1
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List of The thank you chapter :P
1.On 21st May...changing me to become less shy i suppose...I would nvr drive someone out that late somemore alone on the first day of our meeting if u remember...That was the very first time i went and fetch someone whom i have nvr met be4 to go supper...and im alone with no other frens.i am super nervous at that time as I do not know what can we talk about...I am very "nei xiang",dun hv much topic when chat face to face...but well it ended quite well and i thank you for that :D

2. 12th june roughly...Thanks for being my first ever true gf.I might have boast that I have gf be4 this but those are just net gf and they arent real,ur the one that gave me all the experience and let me experience the feeling of being wanted.Although I am quite contented with my life at that time,but u did bring me to a whole new lv of relationship.I never thought that having someone by side is so warm.I love huggings :D

3. Thanks for your time and also your effort.You managed to ask me out a lot of times in fact.I am not the outgoing type,but u did drag me out for movies lots of times and i really enjoyed those times where we watched 2 movies in a row and spending the whole day jz the two of us. U did changed me a lot as I would use excuses to frens and wont go out most of the time but i just cant reject ur invitation that much. and thanks to you,i really had lots of great time watching movie and to keep up to date with the cinema too...

4. Thanks for your consideration on this dull bf. I never had any experience being a bf and so im totally new. and well i am not doing quite a good job as you are the one who keeps coming over instead of me going over...let u do so much walking...haha...i aint romantic or what as well but u still bear with me for so long,i thank you for that.

5. Thanks for ur gift i suppose?the t shirt u got me,i cant wear it comfortably yet...haha..but recently cut down few kgs now manage to wear without feeling too tight..but lose few more kg will really let me fit perfectly ba...haha....thats the only gift i get from u i guess...cant think of others...well...its good enough~

6. This is after getting back to single life...Dunno why u gimme a sudden motivation to lose weight...but i wont lose too much...just lose enough to get to my normal bmi is enough for me.i nvr exercise much,cant expect to lose much also...well thanks anyway :P

7. My life youve changed,i changed alot compared to the Adam u knew before if u really have noticed.And i really appreciate it.I learnt to be brave a bit and also go for things now and then...I might be reluctant sometimes but when its needed,ill get onto it.And yea,i found a new interest in doing part time haha~just to earn extra cash...and its quite fun..i might learn to be more outgoing to join more events as time goes,but slowly...shyness cant just fly away all of sudden.I think im changing to a better person ,well imo.

8.Thanks for bringing me so many happiness although in just such a short term.I learnt to love someone whole heartedly.really thank you.

9. All in all,i jz wanted to thank you for being my gf for 11months+...i aint much and sorry that u need to bear with such a dull guy.arent romantic either to buy u flowers or chocs...altho u still eat my house choc..haha...

10. thanks for all the first time u brought to me...u really bring me to a lots of places with a lot of new experience and i get to learn from u how to be better to own partner.I'll keep that in mind and make myself a better guy.You let me learnt a lot and to think differently a bit...i cant change aall of sudden right?slowly ba...

11. Conclusion of my thanks,thank you for being u and thank you for being there for me.I really enjoyed that moment.Thats all in my thank you posts.well its all over anyway.

Below here is part 2,i will change the font color so if u really feel like reading how i actually feel all these time....feel free to do so,if not,u may just consider this post done.thanks.


PART 2
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These parts will be a bit offending to u i guess,since u alwaz say i nvr accept ur explanation.but this is how i really feel all these times.of cos..the thank you above is all honestly from heart..i really thanked u for that...
Hmm this part might be longer in fact...hahahaha....
Dont read this part if u dunwanna get upset by my thoughts and feelings...

1. lets start from early,what really broke my heart was what u wrote at ur blog but we settled this before so i will not go into it further..it just hurts my pride as someone's else bf.sry that u need to bear with me.

2. when ur in trouble,u didnt actually find me for help instead go for others...if u asked,i might just put aside everything for u.I am who to u actually?i just look like a guy who will only share happiness with u and wont bear ur problems with u?I admit i aint good enough,but u said ur fren is alwaz there by ur side when u need them. did u ever estimate how much i did for u?Did i not care?If im not here,u wont be in kl anymore i guess...
Last time u said i keep give other girls <3 and i stopped,ask back urself did u not did that to other guys?i stopped to initialize sms with any other girls and also in msn...did i do not enough?i only reply when they find me,is it that wrong to have a proper manner to reply others?


3.I hate it when ppl lies and u did that be4...same question,who am i to u?if u explained that to anyone,i dun think anyone would believe it either...typo from "at cc playing" become "home doing ntg"...who am i that u need to lie?
and u said on my bday cook for me,in the end,i still need to eat mamak with u and u treat it like u nvr say before.i hate ppl breaking promises and i told u from the very beginning...Well,correct me if im wrong..i cant remember clearly..but did i ever lie to u?i only remember once and that time im feeling unhappy with what u did although i cant recall....

4. class trip = 1 girl 4 guys .sry but u just say class trip like that,i really cant accept it,im possesive guy and i very easy get jealous.

5. u said i exam time nvr sms u,but my other phone still had record i sms with u...and its during exam...even after cold war,ive been msging u for days..but everytime i start,im the one who replied last as well...u ignored me most of the times,that leads to us breaking up. u said u feel lonely,u go and find other guys to sms with...I am very disappointed,who am i to u actually?u lonely u go find other guy,then what am i?am i just a stranger whom u wan to find then find,dunwan then ignore?is this considered ur bf?i can guarantee whenever there is sms i will reply as soon as i see it unless i fell asleep or out of credit.

6. recent happenings,movie with u even after we break up...but during the movie,u've been pressing phone nonstop.excuse me,u asked for movie and yet u nvr really watch it..and i sit aside like some kind of atm to pay u for ur seats? oh yea...some days ago i said bout ur fren with car right?this pic: http://twitpic.com/5jrr5g ...on the way go wcg?lol...

7. Yea recent happenings again,sms with u...and u said u credited rm5 only seems like u dunwanna sms with me much...well,expected,who am i to u anymore?haha...that day u sms me tell me u miss that time,i also miss,but i cant just say come on...i really cant. I feel totally insecure about u,ur becoming more of a stranger to me day by day...I raelly felt no position within u anymore...same question all over again,who am i to u that u want to do these kind of things to me?and ur recent attitudes like dislike me...


Yea,ive been thinking that we might be able to get back together somehow,but i just cant accept it when i myself lost confidence in myself that i still worth smtg to u.i just cant.well,now u might probably got a new target d,i will take more time to heal,as this is the first time i really think of someone that much,everyday...

you've been giving me hints to chase u back but,i really dunno how i can carry on with so many uncertainties within me...and also the response which are cold and hot at times i really am not sure...ur good,just that i aint that good enough for u.maybe this is the better solution for both of us,u can get more of ur freedom and go get tattoo or go wherever with whoever u want,i cant control.just take care.

well thats about all i wished to tell u,its been inside me for quite some time,just feel like letting them out.if this offense u in anyway,sorry.i cant think of other words.
I just think that i might feel better after thanking u and also expressing my feelings and thoughts all these while.Even if u didnt read part 2,really thanks for coming here and read as my request.
Oh yea and i quit twitter was actually becoz i really got ntg else to do there,opening a tab jz to go twitter will only make my pc lag,i rather get a new phone and use twitter on phone :P
Well,gotta go sleep d,gonna work tmr again...Just thank you for coming and take care wherever ur heading :-)

Regards,
Blues89™

A random post?

Yep...just to write some crap before heading to bed...

Feeling unhappy but thats life :P get with it~

the worse day ever is when u are at office with work to do but u chose not to do...
whats worse is ur colleague take mc then dump u alone on the project all by urself...haiz...

Oh yea,although lots of bad things happening lately but...there is one good news...LOL...
i managed to cut down 6 kg jor...quite an accomplishment for a guy who nvr exercise i guess...xD~

Well..2 months+ to go and im free frm industrial training and get back to student life...
wonder how will it be after getting used to work life...swt...

if only i have a time machine,everything is gonna be so well!!~im gonna time travel back to the junctions before i made my choices so right choices can be made!~:P

but its not gonna come real so well...get on with it...and thats life!

try to enjoy while you can...T_T i know not much time left for me to be fooling around...haiz...

wish me luck in my work and my studies my lonely blog :P

Regards,
Blues89™

Feelings

Feelings of awkardness~_~

Why should I feel such a bad feeling about someone whos not mine?

Wish me luck to forget the past faster >

sad...

its been like years since i last visit a dr but now...
i cant even sleep and i need to see dr at as early as 4am....
and dr says i already has this sickness 1 year ago....
operation might be needed if things get worsen....
haiz...

Movies again- -

My sister dragged me out to movie again !~swt...
this time its Green Lantern...
overall quite not bad....
but...kinda lame also...- -"lol...
Hmm..recently ive been thinking whether im just plain naive or just stupid...lol...
i rather im the naive one :P~
i helped others even without knowing whether the favor will be returned...
or im just a plain good guy?haha!!!
but they said,"good guy extinct d" so,should i be kept under "protected species"?
haha...sry im being lame here lol...
Been working lately and getting tired of everything,just hope that someday i can just sleep thru the day and nite...just for a week or so...doing ntg...
guess waking up early every day is taking its toll on me T-T
Recently been eating a whole lot again...haiz...im nvr gonna lose weight...lol...
well,im who i am ~
know me and accept me as what i am then XD wakkakaa~
and i AINT FAT!!!x.x im FIT!!!LOL!!!~= =" nobody seems to trust that though ...swt...
well...its kinda late d and its time to sleep...
nite to my lonely blog <3

Regards,
Blues89™

PAintball~

Yes I went paintball today at selayang mall with my company ppl :D
well its kinda fun~~~! but i didnt really experience the pain= ="lol...either kena my mask or just got feel but not pain at all..swt nia...

Well..i might be active back in blogspot or maybe doing back my food blogpost?
see if im free ba....recently keep waiting for ppl to go game got free time to write...LOL....
or waiting ppl to come bring me out xD hahahaha!!!

well..overall this is FUN~~ i wanna play more =x shoot ar~

thats it ba for today :P
almost 5 only reach home but i went out at 8= ="SWT!!!


Regards,
Blues89™

move on @@"

People tend to regret something but thats not something good.
if its over,then take it as it is and move on...
As others have did it,I should learn to move on as well.
There is a whole new world out there waiting for me :D

Trying to forget,
Blues89™

Blitz

Yep...went to movie again xD
hahaha....
this time its BLITZ!!~
whats my rating on this....hmm...maybe 4/5 i guess....quite ok but not really too attractive to me...but overall its quite nice :D~
well...back from work then go out till now...then tmr need to go paint ball somemore T_T wuwu~
tiring tiring~
k...done with today's crap

Regards,
Blues89™

Life

Life is fragile...
Yesterday,it is still active and running...
Today,it became a cold corpse by the roadside with no life in it...
Hmm...Life is that fragile...
Sad case to this little craeture i saw everyday when im walking from company to lrt...
T_T

Sad sad story...
Blues89™

15.6.2011

Yes its wednesday now~
I read on news that tmr msia website gonna get hacked= ="
hmm..wonder how it turns out...

and yea~ its almost time!!
FOR THE "PAIN"BALL !!~this saturday!!~
I am coming~ to get my first time experience on playing paint ball= ="
hopefully i dun get aimed too much hahaha...

hmm....what i feel right now...weird feelings all over.....
tired most probably i guess...

well thats it for tonight...

Regards,
Blues89™

12-6-2011

A memorable yet not memorable day...
Hmm...Confusing ~_~"
Mixed feeling...

Argh....ate too much...gotta get more determination...T_T

Part time experience~

Yea,its been my 1st time doing part time as a tutor!
OMGoodness,can u believe that?haha...for someone like me who had stage fright before= ="
now standing in front of the class teaching...lol...
I actually have enough money not to go for part time but...well..since it come and it can give extra cash when i needed some...might as well do it and gaining new experience at the same time..

i taught maths to 3 class...form 1 to form 3...LOL...and i thnk i taught wrongly to the form 3 gang ...haha...sry bout that but i did msg the ori teacher to reteach the things so that u all can understand =x

and its kinda enjoy teaching youngsters...haiz...makes me looks old d...and they say i said the same thing as the replacement teacher before...LOL
"i am not a teacher,im student just like u" ...haha...guess this sentence damn familiar ba...since we all student just replace class for this guy= ="

well its just taking me too long to back home...even after such a tiring day,cant even str8 go to bed...after bath rest awhile online,listen song and now blogging...
although no ppl read,i might just leave this as my diary,so i can see back what i did long time ago...haha

well..today is friday..and my work in office is actually not close to done at all..GG-ing...too many parts blur d...

and good luck to my new plan ~altho today failed...haha...
+u to myself xD

NITE ghosts~~

Regards,
Blues89™

Movies~

YES MOVIES!! Ive completed this season of movie spree i guess haha....
Kung fu panda 2 and x men first class...
but my wallet grew a big hole...no more expensive food~T_T
guess the time spent is quite ok...
the movies are quite good...
and im damn full after drinking almost whole cup of regular soft drink at the last minute before leaving the hall and now getting the effect >swt nia...
well...gonna fool around for awhile before sleep..
nitez

Regards,
Blues89™

Gambate

Be strong I should say to myself...
Resist temptation...
peace....inner peace...

ok done!! lets listen to peaceful music xD

A beautiful song :D

Pirates~

One Piece?
Pirates of the carribean on stranger tides <3
lol...still purposely watch 1,2,3 before this..xD
hopefully another one coming out soon~
love good movies :D

Life's changes

Hmm...Life's been changing a lot...
I game lesser due to my intern...
and intern is getting a bit sien day by day= ="
haiz...
Well,im single for now...Didnt even last a year though >< too bad~
its already 11months ~_~
Yea,i even changed a bit look by wearing specs,more to a nerdy look now i guess xD
but didnt really wear that often...cos my eyesight still very good= ="
Been losing interest to online rpg games...jz dota or hon stir my interest up more...
maybe cos less fren is playing mmorpg,didnt hv the mood to continue...
well these few days been going to cinema a lot....
I watched :
Insidious - rate scary,its quite scary compared to others...consider a well done horror xD
Diary of a wimpy kid - rate hilarious,its funny but didnt really have the complete story...might wanna watch it if just wanna have a laugh...
Pirates of the carribeans on stranger tides - will be watching it later :D
well..thats my week for now = ="


Regards,
Blues89

Hmm..if thats what u wan...

Even we are not together anymore,do that really mean that much?
Cant even be good friend or what?
You even disable me to view your fb wall..why not just delete me if im such a nuisance to u?
Might wanna admit the stupidity of myself that we can still hang out together and be good frens,im just too naive...
Reasons why we are not together?U should really ask that to urself...
u can blame me as well,i am at fault at certain issues as well.
I dont mind letting ppl read,even if ur the one reading it.
ur good,but just maybe im not good enough for u.
u deserve a better guy than me...
i am just a guy with no sense of romance or whatsoever...not even ur type i guess...
That day, i find u just to pass u ur things and sms u so many times and the day after still sms u...but u reply like after 24 hours?
an hour wait and seeing the rain falls is nothing for me...i've even spend 1 whole day doing ntg but walking around the mall as a maid helping to take things.
that 1 hour is ntg...but at least some replies even after ur class finish?
Even if im not ur anybody,i still worry?
Even if u treat me as enemy or what,ur still someone i care and i cherish the moments we had before.
u asked me not to ignore,but all these while,ur the one who nvr reply me?
well...if u wanted space of urself and dunwan to meet me,its fine.
if u wan ur things,u can ask ur fren come take or i pass it to someone who u might meet.

well..thats a bit of what im feeling...
ok...enough crapping d...time to end this...nitez


Regards,
Blues89™

Life

Yea...life...
Its been 11 months...
><~
yes...all this ended cos of my jealousy perhaps...
or maybe just personality...
no one knows...
Hmm..ntg to write d...haiz...too much to be said..but none did it come to my mind to write down...

Dinner at Chili~

Lol...this happened last friday when i was at fb chatting with teo - -"
he suddenly ask for dinner at chilis...
xD
so this is what we get!~
a spontaneous date =x

and this is teo's~

this is mine!!~XD

well back to my food blogspot yea?XD hahaha
quitted my pockie ninja and had more time instaed ><~
well..might update this blog once in a blue moon but stay tune
a dinner cost me that cost me so much!but luckily..damn full= ="